Today is a big day, Reader.

10 years ago today, almost to the hour, is when I was diagnosed with breast cancer the first time.

I walked out of work that day without telling anyone, and I didn't return for 18 months.

I went into overdrive for the first few hours, and then something amazing happened.

At around 24 hours after finding out, I felt an instant calmness come over me, as I sat with myself and my teary eyes.

My whole body tingled with I don't even know what..

And I heard the words in my head, "Everything will be ok, this is way bigger than just me. There is something greater going on here."

I surprised myself!

In the middle of all that chaos and fear, I was capable of that level of peace I had never experienced before.

🌺I look back now and am still amazed that it happened🌺

It doesn't mean that I skipped all the fear and the hard times.. oh no.. I went through it ALL.

Sheesh, what a big four-wheel-drive adventure over a very fucking rocky mountain this has been.

I remember being in the middle of chemo, sitting on my bed one day feeling so unwell that I erupted into despair.. sobbing so hard I couldn't even breathe.

I threw my hands in the air and said out loud, "I can't do this any more, just take me now." I was done.

But then I moved through it, and eventually past it. And of course, I still wanted to be here.

The brain and body do amazing things when you make a decision to help them do what they do best.. survive.

I write this to remind you what you're capable of.

What your brain and body are capable of🌺

Don't ever think this is it. That what you're experiencing will never change. Because it can.

You have every chance of making that happen.

You just need to be willing to start. Not ready.. but willing.

And if you need support right now to help you do that, you know where I am.

Love you.

Ali x

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