It's been a while, Reader.

I haven't written to you since before Christmas.

I've been going through my own devastating circumstances with my husband since well before then.

Firstly, my health is perfectly fine (I know some of you might worry🙏🏻).

There's been a series of events that has seen relationships break down. Two of our children have married in three months, another had his heart broken, my eldest has moved out (again), and I've overthought and over felt a lot of it.

Amongst all the big emotions, there's been the realisation that we aren't safe where we thought we were.

It's been life altering, and deeply painful.

I was so impacted by the psychological pain that it floored me, to the the point of immobilisation💔

Through it all, I have been studying, and working.

I've had to reconnect, purposefully, with my body and my brain to identify the patterns from the past that have come up to be resolved.

I've had to meet my old abandonment wounds, and embrace choose self compassion.

I've kept life simple. And while I embody 'uncomplicated,' life has been all things complicated, and I've had to move slow.

Even the grass hasn't felt like home.

It's been through music and working out that I've found my way back.

I've been moving my body in different ways and it's helping to shift the intensity and density of the big feelings.

That's the thing about healing, Reader, it's important to pivot when you can identify you need to.

Sometimes, meditation and om aren't what you need first.

Our brain receives information through our senses, and then creates meaning, which determines the chemicals released in the brain, and the signal sent to the nervous system.

You then respond with actions according to your conditioned patterns, resulting in either reinforcing the usual cycle, or strengthening a new one.

Healing requires the interruption of the information being sent to your brain.

That means doing different things from what you've done before (if you want things to change of course). You can stay the same. It's certainly more comfortable (even when dysfunctional) but is it still working for you?

I realised in my pain that I needed to change things up.

I feel good working out again. I feel strong, and powerful (changing the information being sent to my brain).

I love moving my body through flowy, low-fi beats, in my lounge room. A bit of ecstatic dance that fires up the senses (and changes the information being sent to the brain).

Through these actions I interrupt the stories in my internal dialogue, and give my brain the chance to create different meaning, release happy hormones, and send different signals to my nervous system, which results in me choosing different actions, which result in more harmonious outcomes - and ultimately my healing.

And I feel more balanced.

I feel more regulated.

I feel more capable, and the immobilisation has passed.

I'm back to smiling😊

Maybe it's also time for you to try something different. If you want things to be different.

Hopefully my message can give you the little nudge to start.

If you want help to do this more deeply, you know where to find me.

Props to your healing, Reader.

Love, Ali

xx

PS; One of my faves to flow to. And if you listen closely, you'll find a little something in there you recognise!